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We are the system members of someone with Dissociative Identity Disorder. There are twenty-two of us as of now, including our "core", and a very special inside-pet. We will not add people who are here to judge us. In fact, if we do not know you from a community for multiples or you are not a friend from our body's journal, don't bother asking to be added. This is for privacy reasons. We were recently asked to be part of a documentary for a film student. We are not a lab rat. We are not interested. Sorry. We are each individuals and very unique. Please be respectful. We will now try to explain ourselves.



My name is Leigh and I'm the person who was born with this body. I've suffered repeated traumas from the age of two and I am now twenty-eight. Originally I made this journal for seven of the eight others who shared my body at the time. I did not know there were many more to come who would make themselves known. Now it will be for all of us as we undergo therapy to learn to co-operate better as a functioning system. This does not mean integration. Our therapist and I agreed this is not something that would benefit me but harm me more. I love them very much and appreciate them every day. I would not be here if they were not here with me.


My name's Cassie and I'm the oldest age-wise. Meaning, I'm the newest that is most certainly "born" due to trauma. I'm angry, and for good reason. Those reasons will be discussed within this journal. I don't need to air it publically. I'm not a very nice person to everyone in the world, but I'm not a very happy person. Take me as I am.





Hi, I'm Becka. I'm 23. I'm here to protect. I'm kind of the "mother hen" of the group. I came here when somebody our core was living with, far from home, isolated her, abused her sexually, physically, emotionally, and verbally. He eventually tried to kill her. I came to a complete development at that point in time and got us out of there.


Hi. I'm Stacey. I'm 22. I came here in July of 2002 but I was asleep from late 2002 until August 2, 2007. I came here when we were raped by a Bishop. He is now in prison. I like hippos and rhinos, and the colors orange and green. I am a female.



Hey. What's up? My name's Phoebe and I'm also 22 and a female. I'm pretty easy going but sometimes I have really bad anxiety and those are the times you don't want to talk to me. Mostly because I don't know what to do when I have an anxiety attack and I tend to get bitchy. Other than that, I get along with almost anybody. I'm not sure if she wants me saying why I'm here where everyone in the world can see it, so I'll save that for our LJ buddies. But I will say I love the color forest green, cats, butterflies, and classic rock music. I don't eat meat. I love, love, love to draw.


Hey. I'm Marsha. I age-slide between 19 and 24. We thought I was "born" due to rape. Now we don't know. As you can imagine, I'm not happy either, but I'm not as brash as Cassie. I'm just confused. I'm not sure where my place is. I used to numb the body with drugs and booze, but the body decided to go through rehab. So now... I don't know what to do. I just kind of exist.


Hey. I'm Pagan, I think. It's a little confusing. I came here in late 1999, but then went to sleep for about six years. When I woke up, the only word I knew to associate with myself 100% was "pagan", but that's not my religious path, so I'm assuming that's my name. *shrug* I'm not going to say why I'm here in our profile because it's embarrassing for our core. I will say that I could not even remember why I was here for a while, nor could anyone see or hear me. Actually Andie could do both, Leigh and Becka could hear me, but that's it. Anyhoo I'm 19 and my favorite colors are red and black. I like maroon too. I don't know really what my favorite animal is or anything.



Howdy. I'm Annabelle. You can call me Anna. I'm eighteen-years-old and I'm a fighter and survivor. I can be both kind and harsh. I'll do about anything for those I love, but if someone tries to hurt those I love they better watch their ass. I was ''born'' when someone hurt the body in a few ways. A few BIG ways. We don't know what happened to that person but I'm sure there's a special section of Hell reserved for people just like him.


Hiya. I'm Andie and I age slide between 16 and 19. I have my own journal at andies_space. I'm going to be using this one too as we do our therapy stuff. But the other one is there cuz I need teenage friends. I'm here to keep balance and tenderness in the system. Anything else you want to know about me, I guess just ask as a comment. I'm pretty nice and very chatty. :0D
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---Joleigh is a split from me, Andie. But she's a kid. She doesn't know how old she is right now, but that's ok.


Yeah, hey. So I'm Dana. I'm a guy and I'm fifteen and sixteen. I'm really into baseball. I go for the Atlanta Braves. I'm kind of loud and hyper but I'm nice. I just like to have fun. I got here to help Leigh up there when she was going through a bad time with this arsehole of a boyfriend who beat her, and to help Andie deal with stuff, but I'm not a split from Andie. I'm a split from Leigh. Hey you guys out there! That's not cool to hurt a girl! It doesn't make you a man. It makes you a big baby. I guess when that was said and done with I just stuck around but went far away inside with two other people here. But I'm back in working order now and maybe I can help her have some fun, man. She deserves to. =)


Hey. I'm Natasha but you can call me Tasha. I am 13. I wasn't really around for a long time and I'm just learning how to be around again so I don't know what to say here. I was deep inside her mind for a very long time and I'm kind of confused right now. This feels new for me all over again. I am not sure what I'm supposed to do here like the other people know. But I know I'm here from being physically hurt. I like gothic stuff, animals like bats and unicorns, and the color purple.


Hi. My name is Libby and I'm twelve years old and Maggie and me are twins. Except we don't look like it if you could see what we really look like and not what the body looks like. And we aren't really very much the same in how we feel and act too. But we do know that we are twins. Oh and I'm a girl like Maggie. We used to go to school and I really liked calligraphy class. We had a really nice pen for it that the teacher gave our body cause our body is a writer and very good at that. I like purple and blue and gold. I use to want a gold and white stripe compforter for our bed but our mom wouldn't buy one cause she said we didn't earn it. She's not very nice sometimes. I also like old fashion candy canes and Mad Libs and Weird Al and koala bears.


Hi. I am Maggie. I am twelve and also a girl. I don't know what to say. I guess I can say that Libby and me are here because when Leigh tried to tell a teacher we was being abused the teacher humilleated her in front of a lot of people because she said kids with rich parents' don't get hurt. Then she told her that she should be ashamed to have said anything about it to anybody. She sent us home and called our mom and told her what Leigh had said and we got hurt for it. Then Libby and I came here to help. I came around the most and one of our teachers was willing to call me by my name but everyone else refused to. They made me go to a docter and said I was crazy. :-/ I like purple best. I also like roses because they remind me of our Nana who is dead now. And turtles too because she liked those. Halloween is tomorrow and I am happy for that.


My name is Emma. I'm new to talking so I hope I get this right. I'm one of the kids. I'm not a little because I'm not really young, but I'm not an adult. My moods are weird and they flash really fast. I get very very mad and then very very sad and then very very nervous all really close together. Sometimes I want to run away from everything but I'm stuck in a mind, so I can't run. I don't know what my purpose is here. I'm trying to figure that one out. [Emma is eleven.]


I am Kara. I am 8. I got lost for a long time but I found my way back. I had a diferent name but we didn't like it much so I have the name Kara now. I like my new name.



Qwentin made himself known to us the most recently as of September of 2007 and has asked me (Andie) to do this for him. He is 7. He does not speak. This doesn't mean he isn't smart cuz he is very smart. He feels like he can't tell people about what our body went through and having to be silent for so long about that has made him be silent about everything. But if he needs to tell somebody anything he will say a couple of words so they know to let him to the front to use a keyboard, to use sign language, or to write. Qwentin likes Winnie the Pooh, the colors blue, red, green, and white, sometimes brown. He likes Billy Joel. He likes dragons, worms, trout, and chasing ducks. We hope that one day he will feel safe to talk but until then we are very proud of him for using his hands to express himself. :0)


Shelby is a girl who we believe to be around ten years old, but may also be an age-slider (to younger ages). She remembers us being bullied horribly at age 10. She isn't sure yet if she has memories before that time, though she often presents (and speaks) as someone much younger. She likes bicycles, gymnastics, African Violets, and darker colors.


im tegan. im not that smart. people say im pretty but i dont think so. i feel a lone a lot but im getting better with that. the body is being very nice to me and helping me to like my self. i got here when a teecher hurt us. i like cats and the color pink and hot chocolates. i am a little. im 9.


Lenore is a little girl who is eight years old. At the time of writing this, she can not spell/write or read. We are going to teach her. Until she learns we will be typing for her. She likes bunny rabbits and ocean colors. We don't know much more but she is a bubbly and happy little girl. She is very observant.


im rae. im five and six. im a litle. sumtime i am the same age is walker. we are freends. i am here cos we got hert by peeple wen we lived in atlanta. they was big kids and they did not liek us. they beet us up evry day. sumtime i hid be hind a bush so we can mis the bus and not get beet up on. then our dad wuld beet us up for that. sumtime our mom did it to. i liek buturflys and green.


i walker. i is 2, 3, 4, and 5. i a lil. and i love to play with play doh and our pet rats. we haf 4 of thems. theyr naymes are mahtilda and beebee and masee and moregan. i has a freend name russel. he is adopted jus like our bodee was. that make me hapie.
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---this my insied dogy. him name is conrad. him is blak lab.

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We're twins in a way. First there was just Brook. *Brook waves* I, Brook was sometimes a guy and sometimes a girl. I didn't like that too much because people didn't know what pronoun to use and my general sense of self was pretty fucked up. So after a long while, from me, came Marina. Now I can be a guy full-time and Marina can be a girl. I am a girl full-time, as far as we know. I haven't been separate from Brook long at all. *checks the time* About twelve hours at the time of writing this, in fact. I don't know if he named me or what; I just know I had this name when I realized I was separate. It's hard to explain how that felt, to be my own me. But back to us. Neither of us has a specific age all the time. We range in age greatly. Some days we are very young and some days we are very old. Brook originally came here due to trauma work our host/core is doing. She is remembering things for the first time and that is very traumatic. Brook has begun to help her process those feelings (along with everyone else in our system) and now Marina will learn to help as well, as a separate part from Brook. So that's the twins.

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